Faith is sometimes a hard thing to come by

So this last week I have had a lot of turn of events in my life. ALL starting on Tuesday Sept 1. My day started off GREAT but than went down hill from there...I got in my first wreck ever! Now it definately wasn't as bad as my cousin Jess, and I am truely thankful for that. But being my first BIG wreck it terrified me! I ended up totalling my car, which made my plans for getting a new car around Jan (which I would have traded in my car as part of a down payment with some money too) no longer valid. I do however to get a new car sooner than planned...WAY sooner and not knowing if I can really afford it. Here is a pic of my car:I was lucky though...the parts under the hood look like they are still good...I think?!?

So I plan on selling the parts to help pay for a new car. Than I was thinking that I was making more than what I really am...somehow I thought I was making 50 dollars more a week...Don't know where that 50 dollars came from but I need to have faith that I will be able to do what I have planned...and I will get more into this in a min.

You might be asking how did this happen? Well I have learned that you should NEVER look down for a split second when it rains outside and if you do no matter the weather make sure you have a four car space in front of you instead of a two car...When I looked down the car infront of me wasn't on the brakes...but when I looked back up they were. It was a three car collision....me being the last. So by law it was my fault. However...the car in front of me, not sure if they had hit the car in front of them first or not. But the one in front of me was also (I believe) totalled too as it had to be towed cause the front end was smashed (not sure how bad as I hadn't really moved from where I stood which was up a little by my passenger side door) and the back end was just the bumper fallen down. Also when I stepped on my brakes (as it was wet) I slid a little underneath the car infront of me (which explains why it was just the bumper). Somehow though I don't know how I ended up not under the car when all was said and done before moving the cars over to the side...

I am very grateful that I didn't have any of the kids I watch in the car with me. But I was a total wreck. I was also thankful that my brother was able to come and get me. He happened to have been working close by (bothell and I was in Bellevue which was a twenty min drive rather than about 35 to 40 min...in traffic mind you). Another thing I am thankful for is that I only left there with a sore back which has been getting better as the days go by.

Latter that night I had my hometeachers over and they gave me a blessing to not worry about money, that it will be there, and to continue with my plans that I have about my future. For those few days I felt peaceful and all was good and than today I realize as I was looking at an excel sheet that I was dead wrong on the amount I make and somehow came up with a wrong amount...off by 50 a week! I felt sooo stupid and some people may think that isn't much but really for me it is!!! I have school that I am tryin to pay for, living expenses, and now added on top of that a car with extra insurance because of the wreck I got in...I am REALLY REALLY tryin to have the faith that I need!!!

Than also today I was thinking about what kind of car I wanted...I wanted something in a good price range but now I also want something that isn't a gas guzzler!! I was able to fill up my tank of gas in my civic (about $25) that would last me a week from all the driving I do! I am borrowing Chris and Allison's car and have put in 33 dollars in the last few days...I use about 1/4 of the tank each of the days that I have works...That is DEFINATELY not going to help in saving some money!!!! So now I think I want to have my civic back!!! It doesn't have to be that particular one but a civic with 4 doors!! Or some other car that does great with gas that isn't too pricey with payments!

On other news...My sister and niece will be here in two and half days! I am totally excited!! I have such a fun week ahead planned for me (somewhat that is)! Tomorrow, I need to go get a money order for my new place that I will be moving into, go to costco to get some plates and cups for my wards potluck on sunday, hopefully look at some cars, and finish up (or mostly finish) packing. Sunday is church and visiting teaching and potluck. Monday I get to sleep in a little as it is labor day and I don't have to work. I also get to pick up Nicole and Daisy at the airport!!! Totally EXCITED!!! After that I think we are going to the pacific science center. Tues and Wed I work long days...Date night for both nights. Thursday I work during the day and then that night I think I will be with the fam (meaning Nicole, Daisy, Chris, Allison and Toph). Friday I do my walk thru in the morning and than unload some stuff and wait for comcast to show up so that I can have internet for my online class. After that we (Nicole, Allison and I) are going to do a girl's day and maybe (hopefully) get pedicures!! That night I am going to be watching daisy. Than saturday I move ALL of my stuff into my new apartment!! YAY!!! And celebrate my birthday (since it's that day) at chucky cheese with Chris, Allison, Toph, Nicole and daisy!! So hopefully it will be a GREAT week full of distractions so won't have time to worry...I know I need Faith and am really trying to keep!!

Ward Campout

The ward campout was SOOO much fun!! I am so happy that I went. The first day we got there (wednesday) we went to the lake altogether. I think only one person stayed and took a nap but every one else went. There was 5 girls that went swimming and like 13 guys....we all stuck together, which isn't normal and so it was nice. Same thing on Thursday too...It wasn't until that night that everyone started to kind of go into little clicks...which is fine.

Thursday night, though, Rikayla, Annie and I went for a walk and we had been told that there was a cougar and a bear and something else loose somewhere. I had forgotten and I think they had too until one spot where we had sat down to talk we heard a growling sound. It freaked us out and decided to go back to the campsite. My heart thumped soooo hard! I was TOTALLY scared!!!

Friday night we had a Dance lesson and than danced after the fireside! It was alot of fun!!

Surprisingly though I only took a few pics on the first day...

Annie and I rode on Rikayla's car when she got there to where she went to park...thought we would get a pick after she parked!!

Playing around the world Ping-Pong

Wowee!

Life seems to keep going with out me realizing the days! I told myself I would be better at keeping everyone up to date, but I haven't!! LOL~ So where to start?!?!

About a week and a half ago I had the opportunity to watch Toph and spend one on one time with him!! HE is just sooo cute! It was my brothers birthday so Allison and Chris went on a date and while they were out (about 10 min before they got home) some of Chris' friends showed up to surprise him. I was going to stay but I had just had my 2 wisdom teeth taken out (almost three...long story...). Toph and I had gone on a little walk out to my car to get one of the birthday cakes and then back to the apartment. He slept for about 40 min or so and than ate. After he ate I tried to burp him for a couple of min and it didn't come so I started to make noises and faces at him to get him to laugh and smile...it worked and then he finally burped and I wasn't very quick with it so it landed on me...after a while I wanted to see what he would do if I put him on his tummy...Allison and chris had told me he had rolled over the night before and I wanted to see if he would do it for me...HE DID!!! Toph really didn't like being on his tummy but loved being on his back listening to me make noises and faces at him...and he would copy the noises...or at least try too!!! It was TOTALLY cute!!!

(this was taken July 21)

Than that weekend Chris and Allison went out of town and I house sitted for them...it was nice to stay there for a couple of days, but I also realized that I was very self conscience. EVERY noise or sound freaked me out...I would get up and check the doors to see if they were locked and the windows closed...I'm not totally used to being in a place at night all by myself with out my dog or a room mate...and I had neither. It made me wonder about me moving in less than a month! I know after awhile I will get used to it but I am still scared, but really excited about it too!!! LOL~

2 weeks ago (Aug 1st), I went to the Kenny Chesney concert!! I love him!! He is one of my favs, but there were a few other of my favs there too!!! There was Lady Antabellum, Miranda Lambert, Montgomery Gentry, Sugarland and Kenny!! I love all of them!!! I am sooo happy that my friend Kerry asked me to go with her!

Me and Kerry drinkin our fresh squeezed lemonade
Kenny Chesney!!!

Kerry lookin at me wierd!! But I love this pic even though it is taken with my cell phone!

Let's see what else has been going on? The hike and hoe down went well...I was the only YSA that is on the committee that was able to go and almost didn't go cause my jaw was still killin me as it was the same week that they got pulled and my jaw getting yanked back and forth to get the lower one out but alas it is still in mouth as they didn't have enough grab to pull it out...so one left to get out!! Anyways...I went with my friend Aryn (pronounced Erin) and Carrissa up to Cascade park which is owned my the church up by marysville. Aryn and I didn't stay for the dance as she had some other place to be and my jaw was killing me!! Carrissa was able to get a ride home so she stayed. All in all it turned out great!

My wards campout is this week. I don't have to work tomorrow and is why I am up writing this at this late hour. I am getting my room somewhat cleaned and I am getting packed to go camping but also to move too...The only day this week that I work is on Tuesday which will be nice...I am really excited to be going!! I wish that I was able to go camping more often!! I love camping!! I just never have anyone to go with and no time to do it!!

After the campout I still have a busy schedule ahead for me! LOL~ I know I complain sometimes that I have no time to do anything, but I bring it on myself (95% of the time). Because I am on the North Seattle multi-stake I get to help plan things for about 4 wards. It's nice. For Novemebers activity we normally do a Turkey bowl where we invite not just our multi-stake but a few others to participate in (so it turns out to be a BIG turnout) and we do it at the Husky Stadium at the UW. Well this year I am charge of it!! Hopefully it will be a great success. So now that the campout is almost done I will be focusing on that, an online course starting Sept 21 in accounting (not sure how that is going to go...), AND working some overtime the last two weeks in Sept and some in the beginning of Oct. Now I definately know that it is my fault for being that busy as I think I have a problem in saying NO. I like to please people...make them as happy as I can cause that it what makes me happy...(most of the time)....But I am actually loking forward to the challege and the adventure that comes with it!!

Another thing that is going on...My extended family (or some that is) on my mom's side are doing "the biggest loser". I wasn't going to participate in it as I don't have a whole lot of time and no longer have my gym membership as it was getting to be a bit much than I could afford. Well than my sister talked me into it. The new apartment complex that I am moving into has a little gym and I plan on using it, but that won't be till September. So I have decided that even though I won't be able to use that till I move there are other things I can do...like watch what I eat (no going out to eat very often), eat more fruits/veggies, and go walking more often...so that is what I am going to do... I am hoping on not only losing weight but committ myself to getting healthier. I HATE looking the way I do and have been trying to lose it but then get side tracked and will end up doing a roller coaster of my workouts and eating habits...But this time I am going to try harder and committ myself more to it. I am not big on committing myself to things that are longterm normally. There has been one thing that I have committed to and I think that I have done a pretty good job on that one thing so now I think I can add in one more and work on getting myself where I want in health and weight-loss!!

time flies so fast sometimes!

So this last few weeks have been a very big roller coaster! I have been able to spend some time with Chris Allison and Toph!! I love being able to go and spend time with them and to play with Toph!! I get to babysit him on Chris's birthday and am totally excited about it! I have also been looking for a 1 bedroom 1 bathroom and found one!!! I am getting the key and walk through the day before my birthday and moving everything on my Birthday (sept 12)!! I am totaly excited about that! A birthday present to me!! LOL~ Than a week ago on Wed, I took Hershey to her new home!! It was one of the absolutely hardest things I have ever had to do!! I knew I would tear up but wasn't expecting to ball like a baby infront of the person that was taking her...but I did!! It is better off that she is with this family cause they have a yard she can run around in and people who are home to play with her....where I am rarely ever home!

Upcoming things that I am looking forward too....

Sept.
*Me moving to my new place
*Nicole and Daisy coming

Aug
*Babysit Toph
*KENNY CHESNEY CONCERT!!!!
*Halls Lake Ward Campout
*Hike and Hoe Down (multi-stake activity)
*Getting one of my Wisdom Teeth takin out (cause it be hurtin...)

I have things to really look forward to in the next two months! I can't believe it!!! In about a month and a half I will be 25 too...I feel really old with nothing to show for it (or at least that is how I feel but know that it isn't really that true)! Life is going good (for the most part) and am trying to be happy and positive!!

4th of July Week

So this last weekend has been amazing!!! Friday I picked my mom up from the airport at 11:30 at night. Sat I dropped my mom off at my brother and sister-in-laws and went paintballing!! It was alot of fun...probably would have been funner if I hadn't been as tired as I was. After paintballing the eight of us that went went and jumped into the river...5 of them ditched and didn't tell us where they had gone but thouhgt that we knew which we didn't...that part was still really fun!! After that I went home and got ready and let my dog go potty. Then went over to Chris and Allison's and spent time with them and her family that was staying there too (Allison's parents and her two nieces). Chris made me promise to go to the fireworks with them, even though I am not a fan of fireworks anymore...Well mom was getting really tired so I ended up going home (YAY!! sorry!!). Sunday I went to Chirs and Allison's ward for Toph's baby blessing and then spent the afternoon/night hanging out with everyone (including my grandparents, Bob and Beth, Mom, Chris and Allison, Toph, Allison's two nieces: Sammy and Caitlin, and Allison's Parents: Gayle and William).

Monday I went to Bellevue to the Deseret Bookstore with mom and then to Seattle and did a little bit of the tourist thing. Like Pike's place market and then met up with Allison and Chris and her family to go see some of the exhibits at the Pacific Science Center and to watch Transformers...which Toph only being about 10 or 11 weeks now did REALLY awesome and watched most of it with out crying! I was very impressed!! And that night I let Allison's youngest niece (Caitlin), paint my fingernails...

Tuesday I woke up at 2 am and searched frantically for my retainer cause somehow I took it out while I was sleeping...I thought it was kinda funny...but when I tell the story it doesn't sound as funny...LOL~ I couldn't really get back to sleep and had to be up in a few hours to leave to take my mom to the airport anyways...It was nice having my mom here and wish that they lived closer. I was able to go home and lay my head down before I had to get up again and get ready to leave to meet up with my grandparents. My grandma and I went to the temple and than to lunch! It was nice to spend some more time with them! I am soo happy that they were also able to come this last weekend!

So it had been a busy weekend and thought that NOTHING could have spoiled it...well than while I was at Walmart my room-mate calls me and tells me to get home cause Hershey had eaten 7 or 8 IB Profin. My room-mate had left them out on the floor with her back (apparently) zipped up and Hershey had gotten into them and ate all of them!! So I had to take her to the ER for animals and spent 4 hours there while they made her vomit and then had her eat some charcoal and they also gave me some medicine to give her every 8 hours. Luckily my friend Julie is helping me out and staying with me so that Hershey gets her medication on time...I have had to either go to meeting after work or couldn't get off earlier to get there in time to do it myself!

I am trying to give her away now as much I don't want to, but she is lot more work and money than I was planning on and the way life is going right now I don't have the time or money to keep her! If I don't find someone before I go camping than I am going to have to put her down and that is a LAST resort that I DON'T want to do....

Now that the June Conference is over I am trying to get all the Thank you cards out and sent to those that helped and then I will totally be done with it! And now my ward is starting to put together the ward campout!! I am soo excited to be apart of it and help put it together! I wish I had more time to go camping than just to the ward one but I am thankful that I get to at least go once a year with them...

This last week

So I was crazy busy with getting things done. From work to last minute stuff for the Western Washington YSA Conference. Today is actually the last day (but I am not going to it, as I have already travelled down to Tacma 3 times and did not want to do a 4th. Plus I wanted to spend time with Chris, Allison, and Toph). I had to make 400 black and white copies and 14 color copies of workshop schedules and maps for this conference. Didn't realize that my copier would take as long as it did, but I got it all done about an hour and half to two hours before I had to leave to go down to Tacoma. Friday night was such a GREAT night!! I got to meet Kirby Heyborne and Corbin Allred!! I have a pic with Corbin but it isn't the greatest pic because it is with my phone and the pic that I have of kirby is on one of my friends camera. So here I am with my friend Kerry and Corbin Friday night!!!

And then yesterday was amazing as well!! I was running aound helping out and the workshops went better than I could have hoped for!!! I have to get ready for church now so I hope every one has a great day!!

craziness

I don't think that I will ever have a non busy life! LOL~ Cause when I get done with one thing I have to try and find something else to occupy that time lost. Anyways...my summer schedule is crazy!! I have the June conference that I am getting stuff done for...which that will be over with this month! YAY!!! But I am working about 60 hours. 40 in about 4 days (tues-fri for Bernard and Lynda). Mondays is about 8 hours with my other employers (Yong and Julie) and then Thursday nights with Yong and Julie, too. Between 4 to 5 hour date night. Somewhere in that time I will be working on a on-line class, trying to spend some time with friends and my dog.

Hershey, my dog, her poor eye swelled up today after chewing on a bone (not even twentyt min after I took it away from her). I am not sure if she has another absest (spelling is probably wrong on that word) tooth or she might be allergic to the bone?? I haven't given her one in a while cause it swelled up the last time and then went down. Although this time it is a LOT bigger than it was. So I hope and pray that before Sat (cause that is the only day I can take her to the vet) that is goes down and that it was just the bone...but I am pretty sure that it isn't the case...LOL~

I am however greatful for the extra hours that I will be getting. I will be making just a tad bit more so that I can hopefully pay off some bills, save for next quarter, save for a graduation trip to Hawaii, and maybe even get a new car in Novemeber that has ALL wheel drive so that when it does snow I won't be stuck in my apartment or at my employers' houses...We will see about that though...I love my car and it gets me to the places that I need to get to but when it snows it doesn't help me out at all...and I am worried about that. It was nice when I lived with my employers cause I was there and able to work but because I no longer live there it makes it harder and not as convienent (spelling?!? sorry!!) to get to work and then I am out of pay for the time!

I don't remember if I remarked in my last blog or not but I am done with my english 092 class (well not technically but I already have my final grade and don't really have to go to class since I don't have a final test). I am proud of the grade I have and am actually surprised with it!! An 85%!!!! I suck at english...well the grammer mostly so I was very empressed at how well I did!! This next quarter starts up in a couple of weeks and I will be taking a keyboarding class (online) to help build speed...you can always improve on that, right? plus since I don't work at a place where I type all the time my speed typing has gone way down. So hopefully I can build it back up to where it was if not faster than that...we will see..and it is part of my requirements for my AA in office managing!!

Well I have to get to bed...it is another work week starting tomorrow...I feel like I didn't get a weekend...sad days!!! Hope everyone has a GREAT and eventful week planned!!!