Sometimes...

I really think the Lord is testing my patience and strength and faith! I got in another accident this afternoon. I am ok and my car still runs it just now has a dent in the back bumper. It's a long story but here is the short version. I was backing up and I made sure no one was coming (as I didn't want to ever have to get in another accident again...the first one was traumatic enough) and was almost completely out I hear and feel a loud thud. The car that hit into me doesn't bother backing up and moving slightly to go park he just keeps going and scratches the entire side of his car, and my bumper more! I told him we needed to exchange information and call the cops! We exchanged information and he left. I didn't know what to do and didn't think that I should call the cops now that the guy had left. So I left...well I learned my lesson! ALWAYS CALL THE COPS! Doesn't matter if the other person left or not....JUST DO IT! This is just one more thing that I am trying to get through! I haven't had my car even 2 months and been in my last accident! A REALLY big part of me doesn't want to drive EVER again!! But I have to! I was barely holding it together and now I am trying even harder! I feel soooooo very out of control with my emotions and everything else in my life! And that is very scary for me!

Almost a month

Wow...things seem so crazy and keeps me really busy! I spend most of my time with work, or school or even with friends. My best friend came almost a week ago and I got to spend some time with her in the two days that she was home for. It was good to see Melanie and spend what little time her and I had in our schedules! I have also been going to the temple regularly and loving every second I am there! I wish that I could spend more time there! I love it there and always feel so revived when I leave. Like I can deal with everything (for a couple hours at least after I leave).

I know that this is short but life is the same (mostly) and keeping me pretty busy! I have to leave for work here in a little bit and still have to finish getting ready! Love ya'll and hope life is going well for ya!

back to school again

So I meant to write in my last blog but I was in a bit of a hurry and most of you know by now...I have a new car. I got it on Sept 5th and I LOVE IT! It is a 2005 Dodge Neon. My fav color too!! BLUE!!! I also haven't written about the rest of my time that I spent with Nicole and Daisy while they were here. I don't have pics cause my SD card is retarted so sorry!!

Thursday: I can't totally remember but I think I just went over to Chris and Allisons and hung out there when I got off of work.

Friday: I had to finish packing some stuff and go and do a walk thru to get my keys. I had to stay at my new place to 1ish for comcast to get internet and the boring local stations. The only channel I really watch is 11 and if I am home for a show or two on channel 5....ohhhh how I miss my DVR and cable!!! (but I can't afford them anymore :-(.) After that I went over and Allison, Nicole and I went and got pedicures. We did a girls day!! Thanks Nicole and Allison!! It was REALLY fun!! And thanks Chris for babysitting!!! Ohh and that night I ended up babysitting Daisy so that Nicole could go to her High school reunion.

Saturday: MY BIRTHDAY!! I turned the big 25...I feel old!! LOL~ As my friend Jordan puts it that if I was lucky I could celebrate turning another of a quarter of a century three more times...Who knows if I want to do that though!! LOL~ It was also moving day! I was well prepared and had pretty much every thing packed so that all they needed to do was grab it and load it up to take. My sister and niece loaded up Allison's car and took it over before everyone else got there so that there would be someone there. I stayed behind to clean up a little. By the time I got to my new place there was only my car and my friend Ethnie's (who also had stayed behind to help a bit). It took ABOUT an hour to do ALL of that...It was great! Thanks EVERYONE who helped out with that. We started to unpack some and made it look somewhat nice. Later that night, Nicole, Daisy, Chris, Allison, Topher and I went to Chuck E Cheese to celebrate my birthday! Allison told them that it was my birthday and they came out with two balloons and about 30 tokens. Daisy was entranced with the figures on the stage and also with a couple of the rides/picture things...Topher also was loving the figures up on stage and the tv thing....

Sunday: I went to Stake Conference and than when I got home Nicole Daisy and I went to Mulkiteo Beach and also went on my real father's boat with him and Beth. It was a lot of fun. We then headed to chris and allisons and we all headed up to Marysville to have dinner with Beth (my real dad's girlfriend) and Bobby. After dinner we headed back to C&A's place and went hot tubbin!

Than I went back to work as usual. I was able to spend time with friends throughout the week to celebrate my birthday and ended up having a BIG bash at red robin on the 18th. It was a lot of fun and was actually a bit surprised how many people showed up...I honestly thought that there might only be about 5 to 10 people but there were a lot more! Thanks! It made it really fun!! After red robin I went over to Jordans with a bunch of other people and we ended up watching the Office off of his DVR (the new one from thursday) and than played 4 on a couch. I think we played two rounds of that...the first one lasted 5 min or so and the other one like 45 min to an hour...LOL~ Than started rockband! I love playing that. I lost track of time and next thing I knew julie was telling me she needed to go home to get to bed...SORRY JULIE!! I got home at 1am and than was up at 6. I went to support Julie at the temple as she was getting her endownments out for the first time. CONGRATS!! YAY!! I ended up having to work after that. I took the 3 kids to the Seattle Aquarium! I love going there and I hope to go more often!!!

I have also been doing some more over time this week and next week. It's been nice to have some extra income coming in to pay on some bills! This sat if it is nice and NOT raining I want to take the 3 kids to the zoo...so hopefully it will be SUNNY!!!

I also started my accounting class yesterday. I am still not sure how it's going to go but I hope I will do a great job...

So far

So Nicole and Daisy flew in on Labor Day (monday) and I was able to pick them up from the airport!! After picking them up we went to the Seattle Pacific Science Center! It was a lot of fun!!

"Cheese Auntie"

Nicole and Daisy putting together a bee puzzle

"Look at me!"
Showing love to each other on this BIG chair!

From across the table

I look tiny at the table!

Daisy looks even smaller!
Mother and Daughter!
How Precious!

After that we went to my place for a little bit and than off to Chris and Allison's to see them and Baby Toph! I have pics from my phone but it isn't working at the moment so when I get them I will post them! Hopefully!! LOL~

Annoying

So every night when I go to bed around 10 my nieghbors diagonally from me are outside by my window with their friends talking a little to loudly but they aren't out there for very long and that is fine...but this morning Iwas RUDELY awaken from the same people at 2 am with them fighting and yelling for 15 min!!!! Than finally te one that actually lives there was like lets do this inside (must have finally realized how loud they were being). But about every 20 min their door would open and close and you could hear the shouting match going on as if it were ot by my window just a tad softer...I think that finally ended around 4 am this morning and they came outside and shouted for about 10 more min before heading to their cars and leaving...I was thankful that it was finally done so I could get some sleep...but no....each time of them being outside for that length made me wide awake and took forever to fall asleep...Now it being about 6:30 in the morning I am now WIDE awake and can't get back to sleep on a SATURDAY no less!! Sorry this was a venting blog cause I am really tired but can't sleep...so frusterating....

Faith is sometimes a hard thing to come by

So this last week I have had a lot of turn of events in my life. ALL starting on Tuesday Sept 1. My day started off GREAT but than went down hill from there...I got in my first wreck ever! Now it definately wasn't as bad as my cousin Jess, and I am truely thankful for that. But being my first BIG wreck it terrified me! I ended up totalling my car, which made my plans for getting a new car around Jan (which I would have traded in my car as part of a down payment with some money too) no longer valid. I do however to get a new car sooner than planned...WAY sooner and not knowing if I can really afford it. Here is a pic of my car:I was lucky though...the parts under the hood look like they are still good...I think?!?

So I plan on selling the parts to help pay for a new car. Than I was thinking that I was making more than what I really am...somehow I thought I was making 50 dollars more a week...Don't know where that 50 dollars came from but I need to have faith that I will be able to do what I have planned...and I will get more into this in a min.

You might be asking how did this happen? Well I have learned that you should NEVER look down for a split second when it rains outside and if you do no matter the weather make sure you have a four car space in front of you instead of a two car...When I looked down the car infront of me wasn't on the brakes...but when I looked back up they were. It was a three car collision....me being the last. So by law it was my fault. However...the car in front of me, not sure if they had hit the car in front of them first or not. But the one in front of me was also (I believe) totalled too as it had to be towed cause the front end was smashed (not sure how bad as I hadn't really moved from where I stood which was up a little by my passenger side door) and the back end was just the bumper fallen down. Also when I stepped on my brakes (as it was wet) I slid a little underneath the car infront of me (which explains why it was just the bumper). Somehow though I don't know how I ended up not under the car when all was said and done before moving the cars over to the side...

I am very grateful that I didn't have any of the kids I watch in the car with me. But I was a total wreck. I was also thankful that my brother was able to come and get me. He happened to have been working close by (bothell and I was in Bellevue which was a twenty min drive rather than about 35 to 40 min...in traffic mind you). Another thing I am thankful for is that I only left there with a sore back which has been getting better as the days go by.

Latter that night I had my hometeachers over and they gave me a blessing to not worry about money, that it will be there, and to continue with my plans that I have about my future. For those few days I felt peaceful and all was good and than today I realize as I was looking at an excel sheet that I was dead wrong on the amount I make and somehow came up with a wrong amount...off by 50 a week! I felt sooo stupid and some people may think that isn't much but really for me it is!!! I have school that I am tryin to pay for, living expenses, and now added on top of that a car with extra insurance because of the wreck I got in...I am REALLY REALLY tryin to have the faith that I need!!!

Than also today I was thinking about what kind of car I wanted...I wanted something in a good price range but now I also want something that isn't a gas guzzler!! I was able to fill up my tank of gas in my civic (about $25) that would last me a week from all the driving I do! I am borrowing Chris and Allison's car and have put in 33 dollars in the last few days...I use about 1/4 of the tank each of the days that I have works...That is DEFINATELY not going to help in saving some money!!!! So now I think I want to have my civic back!!! It doesn't have to be that particular one but a civic with 4 doors!! Or some other car that does great with gas that isn't too pricey with payments!

On other news...My sister and niece will be here in two and half days! I am totally excited!! I have such a fun week ahead planned for me (somewhat that is)! Tomorrow, I need to go get a money order for my new place that I will be moving into, go to costco to get some plates and cups for my wards potluck on sunday, hopefully look at some cars, and finish up (or mostly finish) packing. Sunday is church and visiting teaching and potluck. Monday I get to sleep in a little as it is labor day and I don't have to work. I also get to pick up Nicole and Daisy at the airport!!! Totally EXCITED!!! After that I think we are going to the pacific science center. Tues and Wed I work long days...Date night for both nights. Thursday I work during the day and then that night I think I will be with the fam (meaning Nicole, Daisy, Chris, Allison and Toph). Friday I do my walk thru in the morning and than unload some stuff and wait for comcast to show up so that I can have internet for my online class. After that we (Nicole, Allison and I) are going to do a girl's day and maybe (hopefully) get pedicures!! That night I am going to be watching daisy. Than saturday I move ALL of my stuff into my new apartment!! YAY!!! And celebrate my birthday (since it's that day) at chucky cheese with Chris, Allison, Toph, Nicole and daisy!! So hopefully it will be a GREAT week full of distractions so won't have time to worry...I know I need Faith and am really trying to keep!!

Ward Campout

The ward campout was SOOO much fun!! I am so happy that I went. The first day we got there (wednesday) we went to the lake altogether. I think only one person stayed and took a nap but every one else went. There was 5 girls that went swimming and like 13 guys....we all stuck together, which isn't normal and so it was nice. Same thing on Thursday too...It wasn't until that night that everyone started to kind of go into little clicks...which is fine.

Thursday night, though, Rikayla, Annie and I went for a walk and we had been told that there was a cougar and a bear and something else loose somewhere. I had forgotten and I think they had too until one spot where we had sat down to talk we heard a growling sound. It freaked us out and decided to go back to the campsite. My heart thumped soooo hard! I was TOTALLY scared!!!

Friday night we had a Dance lesson and than danced after the fireside! It was alot of fun!!

Surprisingly though I only took a few pics on the first day...

Annie and I rode on Rikayla's car when she got there to where she went to park...thought we would get a pick after she parked!!

Playing around the world Ping-Pong